Friends Only-Filtered away from the kids

[father_peter]

Today I was told that my daughter only exsists because Katherine was afraid she'd lose me after I caught her cheating. Of course, big dummy that I am, I wasn't really going to leave her (I've made that particular mistake twice now...marvel at my stupidity) but she was so afraid that she stopped taking her birth control pills to try and get pregnant to keep me there.

Wonderful, isn't it?

But the very fact that Katherine admitted that to me actually made me feel better. Not because of what she did, but because she's changed enough that she can see what she did as a bad thing. And she trusts me enough to tell me. That's pretty astounding progress from hissing obscenities when I walk into a room, I think.

And really, I don't care how Lydia came about. I'm just damn glad she's here.

Comments

[father-peter.livejournal.com]

You are justified in feeling any way you want, Renee. I don't think it's petty at all. It is taking a great deal for granted and she gambled with a great many things. I'm just glad that it didn't turn out horribly. I want to be angry, but Lydia is so beautiful and I just can't make myself feel upset that she's here. Katherine was a lost, hurting woman. She didn't understand what she was doing then. She does now, and that gives me hope.

[seminalsemiotic.livejournal.com]

To gain understanding is noble as a goal and in deed. I'm glad it has turned out thus. And I'm glad you understand the way I feel. Sometimes I feel as though there are things I take too personally, especially knowing that sometimes I may be a little... funny in the head. It's good to hear a little validation of my sanity every now and again. That in itself probably helps to get me out of trouble, you know?

[father-peter.livejournal.com]

I do know. I also know it's better to feel what you're feeling and express that to others than to bottle it up and keep it to yourself. That's what Katherine did. And myself, for many years. Even if someone doesn't understand, the people who love you will still listen. I know that from experience too. And I know that when they listen, they help.

I haven't forgotten that it was you that refused to accept something I said once. You told me there had to be another way and we compromised. If I hadn't listened, I don't think I'd be here right now. So see, you happen to keep me out of trouble too.

[seminalsemiotic.livejournal.com]

You make so much sense. I'm so glad I have you to talk to. I really am blessed to have so many people who care so deeply for me. And I'm very glad indeed to know you know the same, that there is a veritable legion of friends waiting to catch you should you stumble or fall. I love you, Peter. As for keeping you out of trouble, well... even if some people call it "stubborn", I know I'm really just awesome like that.

[father-peter.livejournal.com]

You really are! And I love you a great deal.