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[father_peter]

Just a quick note, Renee, because I'm taking your cousin out for some Dad and Tasha time. Before I say what I want to say though, I thought I should inform you that some people suspect that she's the one taking over Bianca's journal. She's very upset about it and some Renee time might help too, though I'll do my best to cheer her up tonight. We'll go somewhere special, though I do fear she's going to take me to some club or...pierce me or something!

I wanted you to know that you were an inspiration to me today. I went with Thomas to see Svetlana and I didn't think I could do it. I kept thinking of all the things she did to me...to my girls...to David and I didn't think I could sit there and talk to her. And then I thought of you and how brave you are to reach out to Josie. You speak to her and encourage her and there's nothing that says you have to do that. No one would blame you if you didn't, and you do it anyway. I find that nothing short of amazing. And thinking about that gave me the strength to visit Svetlana.

I think it's important to tell the people who inspire us, and I wanted you to know that. You gave me strength today without even meaning to. So thank you, Renee. I love you.

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[seminalsemiotic.livejournal.com]

Oh, Peter. Thank you so much. I love you too.

I know Josie isn't a bad person. She was even merciful to me when she had me in that apartment. I'll admit to you freely, Peter, that I couldn't act the same way with Jillian, if she were alive. I never saw humanity in her eyes. But I could talk to Josie, find common ground. I'm still doing that now. Sometimes I'm afraid of her. But mostly, I see someone who can do what Deirdre did, and come back from the brink to be an extraordinary girl doing her best to live an ordinary life. And she deserves the chance to do that. From all that I've heard, Svetlana will be a far greater challenge than Josie in that regard, but I also suspect that you'll be much better at this than I am. I have high hopes for what you can achieve together. You're an inspiration to me too, Peter, every day.

Thank you for telling me about Tasha. I'll make sure to take care of her. Kait already said to Deirdre and I that she had her suspicions regarding Tash, but we did our best to dissuade her. I don't think she's entirely convinced, but it seems like she's willing to give her the benefit of the doubt for now, which I know is all that can reasonably be asked, given their history. I'm sure you'll make her feel much better, though. She loves you unconditionally. I can see that just from the way she looks at you. You give her so much that she needs. I can't thank you enough for looking after her so well. I know you love her, too. So thank you, thank you Peter. You really do enrich all of our lives.

xo

[father-peter.livejournal.com]

You're very welcome.

I understand about Jillian. With Svetlana, there was always humanity behind her, I just refused to see it because she stole Thomas from me. But that wasn't fair of me and it's taken 12 years to figure that out. Almost 13. And I do hope I can help Svetlana. We talked and I feel I at least understand her now and that was the first hurdle, really.

I didn't know Kait suspected her too. I see. I suppose I understand where it's coming from, but the idea of it never entered my mind. All I see is how completely she's changed and how hard she's worked and I know she'd never throw that away for anything. She's given me a lot too. She's pulled me out of far darker places than I have a right to ask or expect, but she did it. And once she pulled me out of a toolshed. You're absolutely welcome, Renee. It's a pleasure having her for a daughter.

[seminalsemiotic.livejournal.com]

Well, Josie never took anyone from me, so I have far less to forgive than you do. Goddess, if anyone were to hurt Pierre, or Deirdre or Kait... Well, I don't know how I would react. Not so kindly, I expect. I hope you and Svetlana are able to put the last twelve years behind you.

Tasha has changed, so very much. For most of the time I knew her though, I didn't even see that she wasn't the person she is now. We loved each other so much that I was blind to her flaws. It took a lot to convince me that she needed to change in the first place. I'm so glad she did though, and so very glad she has you to offer her the support and encouragement she needs. And indeed, that she has been able to give some of that back to you. It's good to see you finding the things you need *smiles*

[father-peter.livejournal.com]

We'll work on it. Svetlana was defending herself. She thought we were going to send her soul to hell. We terrified her. Thomas told me a long time ago that he understood and didn't blame her. I never understood until today and without your strength I still might not.

It's easy to overlook flaws when we love someone even though everyone has them. She found what she needed in the end though. And I'm very grateful for that.

[seminalsemiotic.livejournal.com]

Fear can make us do terrible things. I'm certainly very aware of that. I'm glad you were able to reach the understanding of Svetlana's motivations. This really might be the breakthrough you need.

We're all just doing the best we can. We'll get it right in the end. You and Tasha both seem well on the way there *smiles*

[father-peter.livejournal.com]

I hope so, Sweetheart.

And thank you!