father_peter: (omgyum)
Today was mad. That's...kind of the only way to describe it. This morning we decided to undertake an expedition to the museum of Valencia. It's....incredible. Look. Christina wanted to accompany us, as she and Aly are both British Museum alums. It was amusing to hear them comparing notes. "Our displays are so much better." And then I said that the people who worked at the British Museum were so much more beautiful too, and they both kissed my cheek!! Peter wins! Anyway, Christina was not the only one that decided to come along. Svetlana wanted to see it as well, and thus, we dragged Thomas along for the ride. He was Not Pleased to be taken away from his ocean. In fact, he made quite a point to look grotty and wear the most touristy things he could find. And a hat. Because days in the sea water make Thomas's hair all curly! Hee! Anyway, he started making the best faces while we were waiting (forever) for a tram. He looked quite annoyed. And then Svetlana befriended some American tourists and she informed them rather loudly "This is Thomas! He is my impotent boyfriend! And that is why Peter is my baby daddy!" And then Thomas looked at me like this. Poooor Thomas. And he insists it was because he was hungry, but I know the truth. Emma, meanwhile, is confused because she did not know Svetlana was having my child (oops...)

Anyway...in the afternoon, Lydia went with the older girls to go shopping. They were rather successful and brought back some wonderful things. And some holes in some ears. But Lydia looks very grown up and beautiful. Then came meeting family members I've never met before. Cousin Vincenza, who is a 17 year old who must be some sort of supermodel. And for some reason she wouldn't let go of me. That is when I realised I picked up a bit of crazy down in St. Sebastians. I do not like people touching me if I don't know them. She's Aly's family, and I was terrified she was going to jab my side with a hot poker. Anyway, then I met her father, Cousin Alejandro and he was confused when Jacinta introduced me as her son. He said "David, what have you done with your hair?" and I think David was a tad insulted at that. Me, I just giggled. But then he hugged me and I had a panic attack. But I hid it well, thank you! Hopefully I'll get over that whole...DON'T TOUCH ME thing. Probably when lovely family members don't hot poker me in the side. Or...anywhere else.

Ahem. Best part of the night? During David's rehearsal dinner, Brian decided to be an arse. He walked up to David and inquired as to why he was getting married to a woman if he's gay. He could take a hint from 'the lesbos' instead. And Thomas, who had had enough today, just punched him in the arm. No hesitation. And Brian looked shocked. And everyone applauded Thomas and he's now been accepted as a cousin too!

Impotence and all.

David gets married tomorrow!!
father_peter: (omgyum)
Today was mad. That's...kind of the only way to describe it. This morning we decided to undertake an expedition to the museum of Valencia. It's....incredible. Look. Christina wanted to accompany us, as she and Aly are both British Museum alums. It was amusing to hear them comparing notes. "Our displays are so much better." And then I said that the people who worked at the British Museum were so much more beautiful too, and they both kissed my cheek!! Peter wins! Anyway, Christina was not the only one that decided to come along. Svetlana wanted to see it as well, and thus, we dragged Thomas along for the ride. He was Not Pleased to be taken away from his ocean. In fact, he made quite a point to look grotty and wear the most touristy things he could find. And a hat. Because days in the sea water make Thomas's hair all curly! Hee! Anyway, he started making the best faces while we were waiting (forever) for a tram. He looked quite annoyed. And then Svetlana befriended some American tourists and she informed them rather loudly "This is Thomas! He is my impotent boyfriend! And that is why Peter is my baby daddy!" And then Thomas looked at me like this. Poooor Thomas. And he insists it was because he was hungry, but I know the truth. Emma, meanwhile, is confused because she did not know Svetlana was having my child (oops...)

Anyway...in the afternoon, Lydia went with the older girls to go shopping. They were rather successful and brought back some wonderful things. And some holes in some ears. But Lydia looks very grown up and beautiful. Then came meeting family members I've never met before. Cousin Vincenza, who is a 17 year old who must be some sort of supermodel. And for some reason she wouldn't let go of me. That is when I realised I picked up a bit of crazy down in St. Sebastians. I do not like people touching me if I don't know them. She's Aly's family, and I was terrified she was going to jab my side with a hot poker. Anyway, then I met her father, Cousin Alejandro and he was confused when Jacinta introduced me as her son. He said "David, what have you done with your hair?" and I think David was a tad insulted at that. Me, I just giggled. But then he hugged me and I had a panic attack. But I hid it well, thank you! Hopefully I'll get over that whole...DON'T TOUCH ME thing. Probably when lovely family members don't hot poker me in the side. Or...anywhere else.

Ahem. Best part of the night? During David's rehearsal dinner, Brian decided to be an arse. He walked up to David and inquired as to why he was getting married to a woman if he's gay. He could take a hint from 'the lesbos' instead. And Thomas, who had had enough today, just punched him in the arm. No hesitation. And Brian looked shocked. And everyone applauded Thomas and he's now been accepted as a cousin too!

Impotence and all.

David gets married tomorrow!!
father_peter: (Hands in the Hair)
Well! Today was a wonderful day! My sister proposed to Emma. She said yes, of course. They're off 'celebrating'. And David's getting married on Tuesday! Such excellent and happy news. We took a day off from touristing too and so I spent all afternoon watching Thomas do this )

Today, Lydia and I talked and she's so grown up it scares me a little! She wants to get her ears pierced. And considering everything she's come through, I think she deserves to make that decision. She's excited because she gets to go shopping with Hope and Tasha and Zoe and Isabella. Meanwhile Daddy sits home and has a minor flipout that she'll come back with a mohawk or something. But she's proven that she's mature beyond her years and she deserves to have fun. And considering that all of her siblings are younger with the exception of Tasha, she also deserves to spend some time with older people who aren't parental units. I'm so proud of her.

And David. And Emma. And Liz. And I love Aly so very much.

Miguel, however, keeps trying to give me tequila. "For celebrate!" He is very nice and everything, but I currently do not love Miguel. And I wish I had some tequila. But wouldn't that just ruin a perfectly wonderful holiday. (I'll just keep reminding myself of that every 20 seconds).
father_peter: (Hands in the Hair)
Well! Today was a wonderful day! My sister proposed to Emma. She said yes, of course. They're off 'celebrating'. And David's getting married on Tuesday! Such excellent and happy news. We took a day off from touristing too and so I spent all afternoon watching Thomas do this )

Today, Lydia and I talked and she's so grown up it scares me a little! She wants to get her ears pierced. And considering everything she's come through, I think she deserves to make that decision. She's excited because she gets to go shopping with Hope and Tasha and Zoe and Isabella. Meanwhile Daddy sits home and has a minor flipout that she'll come back with a mohawk or something. But she's proven that she's mature beyond her years and she deserves to have fun. And considering that all of her siblings are younger with the exception of Tasha, she also deserves to spend some time with older people who aren't parental units. I'm so proud of her.

And David. And Emma. And Liz. And I love Aly so very much.

Miguel, however, keeps trying to give me tequila. "For celebrate!" He is very nice and everything, but I currently do not love Miguel. And I wish I had some tequila. But wouldn't that just ruin a perfectly wonderful holiday. (I'll just keep reminding myself of that every 20 seconds).
father_peter: (Happy)
Hola, amigos! We're safely in Spain. Valencia to be exact. It's amazing here and I'm already completely relaxed. I know, marvel at the concept. But I had a nap. On a porch. In a swing! With Thomas (the baby one) in my lap and Aly leaning against me, and we dozed listening to the waves of the beach. Well, and the squeals of Hope and the not-baby Thomas as they splashed in the ocean.

Then I think I ate my weight in food, and Aunt Rosalia kissed me (noooooooooo) and I sat there like a moppet with Edward while Aly, Jacinta and David spoke to the cousins in rapidfire Spanish. Incredible, really. It made me remember our trilingual rehearsal dinner when Aly and I got married. Not that the Germans ever really talked. And Thomas and Robert spoke in Latin, just to be cheeky devils.

Anyway, I'm all relaxed and losing my point. Hi, we're safe and happy! And we have internet, even if Isabella is incredibly interested in what I'm doing over here. Tomorrow we're going to go see the Plaça de l'Ajuntament. Aly had to type that for me. I still can't even say it. But I'll take pictures!

Tonight, Isabella and Rosalia are insisting on taking care of the kids, so Aly and I are going out. It's going to be wonderful. We're going to have a date! In Spain! I might be excited.

I hope everything is going well for all of you!
father_peter: (Happy)
Hola, amigos! We're safely in Spain. Valencia to be exact. It's amazing here and I'm already completely relaxed. I know, marvel at the concept. But I had a nap. On a porch. In a swing! With Thomas (the baby one) in my lap and Aly leaning against me, and we dozed listening to the waves of the beach. Well, and the squeals of Hope and the not-baby Thomas as they splashed in the ocean.

Then I think I ate my weight in food, and Aunt Rosalia kissed me (noooooooooo) and I sat there like a moppet with Edward while Aly, Jacinta and David spoke to the cousins in rapidfire Spanish. Incredible, really. It made me remember our trilingual rehearsal dinner when Aly and I got married. Not that the Germans ever really talked. And Thomas and Robert spoke in Latin, just to be cheeky devils.

Anyway, I'm all relaxed and losing my point. Hi, we're safe and happy! And we have internet, even if Isabella is incredibly interested in what I'm doing over here. Tomorrow we're going to go see the Plaça de l'Ajuntament. Aly had to type that for me. I still can't even say it. But I'll take pictures!

Tonight, Isabella and Rosalia are insisting on taking care of the kids, so Aly and I are going out. It's going to be wonderful. We're going to have a date! In Spain! I might be excited.

I hope everything is going well for all of you!
father_peter: (Lovable)
Tasha is getting better everyday, which makes me very happy. She als0 becomes more and more like Liz everyday, which is scary, but I am quite grateful for that as well. Even if I am now surrounded...

Because of Tasha's condition, she's going to be able to take deferred exams so we'll be leaving for Spain sooner than anticipated. We won't be gone long. We just want a chance to relax and there are several dozen Spanish cousins waiting to steal Thomas from me and coo over him. Speaking of Thomases, Big Thomas is going to come with us. He says he's going to wear a bikini. Don't you worry, I'll take pictures.

I read Baby Thomas the Symposium today. I figured why bother with the baby books, why not start right off! He stares at me in rapt attention and smiles. He likes Socrates! But when I read Aristotle, he falls asleep. He is clearly a Plato fan. Or he'd rather hear about love instead of being virtuous. I'm with you, Little Guy.

Svetlana, would you like to come over today? I have something I'd like to discuss with you.
father_peter: (Lovable)
Tasha is getting better everyday, which makes me very happy. She als0 becomes more and more like Liz everyday, which is scary, but I am quite grateful for that as well. Even if I am now surrounded...

Because of Tasha's condition, she's going to be able to take deferred exams so we'll be leaving for Spain sooner than anticipated. We won't be gone long. We just want a chance to relax and there are several dozen Spanish cousins waiting to steal Thomas from me and coo over him. Speaking of Thomases, Big Thomas is going to come with us. He says he's going to wear a bikini. Don't you worry, I'll take pictures.

I read Baby Thomas the Symposium today. I figured why bother with the baby books, why not start right off! He stares at me in rapt attention and smiles. He likes Socrates! But when I read Aristotle, he falls asleep. He is clearly a Plato fan. Or he'd rather hear about love instead of being virtuous. I'm with you, Little Guy.

Svetlana, would you like to come over today? I have something I'd like to discuss with you.
father_peter: (Shiny Unhappy Eyes)
As you no doubt read, Lavinia Littleton was here earlier. She surprised us by visiting while she was here in town buying lawn furniture. She said her old stuff was rusting through and she didn't want to end up on the ground. Anyway, she wanted to meet my wife and see baby Thomas again. Problem is, older Thomas was here. And she's his son...who is dead. I'm so glad he saw her coming. That could have been horrible. Not that it isn't anyway. I can't find Thomas anywhere.

Has he come to see any of you?
father_peter: (Shiny Unhappy Eyes)
As you no doubt read, Lavinia Littleton was here earlier. She surprised us by visiting while she was here in town buying lawn furniture. She said her old stuff was rusting through and she didn't want to end up on the ground. Anyway, she wanted to meet my wife and see baby Thomas again. Problem is, older Thomas was here. And she's his son...who is dead. I'm so glad he saw her coming. That could have been horrible. Not that it isn't anyway. I can't find Thomas anywhere.

Has he come to see any of you?
father_peter: (MMmmm Black and White)
October 14th, 2006

I've been thinking a lot about fear lately, as I am sure I should be. Fear controls us in such incredible ways and not always for the best. Recently I had myself convinced that the best thing to do for the people I loved was to seperate myself from them. It stemmed from my fear for them, which is not unfounded, just misplaced. It was not me that made them targets or endangered them. It is just how it is and I can do far more good with them than without them.

My fear of being alone led me to do things as well. Terrible things. Things I still shudder to think about, and I can't quite believe that it was me that did them. It was if I was watching and not acting. It all came from fear and lonliness.

But fear is not always bad. Fear can lead to good things. I feared my terrible experiences would happen again, and I sought to deal with such problems. I, with the help of my dear friend David, went to a place I've been avoiding for over a decade. I made my peace with someone that has defined my life in so many ways, and most of them are not pleasent ways. I went to Thomas's grave and I saw it with my own eyes. I went back to Downside Abbey and I was able to say that Thomas's death, though they made me accept responsibility so many years ago, was not my fault. I faced Grahame, and I saw Stuart again. I faced my fear and only Grahame came out of it a coward.

A wise man once said that all we have to fear is fear itself. I don't believe this to be true. There is much to fear in this world and I myself have seen more of it than I would like to have seen. It's smart to fear. What we have to be afraid of is letting that fear control us. Letting it separate us from what is important and what is good. That which makes us strong.

I am not going to let it control me anymore.
father_peter: (MMmmm Black and White)
October 14th, 2006

I've been thinking a lot about fear lately, as I am sure I should be. Fear controls us in such incredible ways and not always for the best. Recently I had myself convinced that the best thing to do for the people I loved was to seperate myself from them. It stemmed from my fear for them, which is not unfounded, just misplaced. It was not me that made them targets or endangered them. It is just how it is and I can do far more good with them than without them.

My fear of being alone led me to do things as well. Terrible things. Things I still shudder to think about, and I can't quite believe that it was me that did them. It was if I was watching and not acting. It all came from fear and lonliness.

But fear is not always bad. Fear can lead to good things. I feared my terrible experiences would happen again, and I sought to deal with such problems. I, with the help of my dear friend David, went to a place I've been avoiding for over a decade. I made my peace with someone that has defined my life in so many ways, and most of them are not pleasent ways. I went to Thomas's grave and I saw it with my own eyes. I went back to Downside Abbey and I was able to say that Thomas's death, though they made me accept responsibility so many years ago, was not my fault. I faced Grahame, and I saw Stuart again. I faced my fear and only Grahame came out of it a coward.

A wise man once said that all we have to fear is fear itself. I don't believe this to be true. There is much to fear in this world and I myself have seen more of it than I would like to have seen. It's smart to fear. What we have to be afraid of is letting that fear control us. Letting it separate us from what is important and what is good. That which makes us strong.

I am not going to let it control me anymore.

To David

Oct. 11th, 2006 01:51 am
father_peter: (HAWT)
Tomorrow I thought I'd go visit Thomas's grave. I've never seen it and I think it's high time I do. It's at Downside Abbey where he and I lived as monks. You are certainly welcome to come with me if you would like to. You don't have to, but I thought you might like to come.

To David

Oct. 11th, 2006 01:51 am
father_peter: (HAWT)
Tomorrow I thought I'd go visit Thomas's grave. I've never seen it and I think it's high time I do. It's at Downside Abbey where he and I lived as monks. You are certainly welcome to come with me if you would like to. You don't have to, but I thought you might like to come.

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Sep. 26th, 2006 01:13 pm
father_peter: (Looking Down)
September 26th, 2006

I'm still unable to write much with my hand, even though the cast is off. And I have many things on my mind, so I will return to this again.

There was an article in the paper yesterday about a woman who wrapped electrical tape around herself and jumped from a 12 story building. And she survived. I know there's no possible way she's human, and now the media is on to it, reporting this 'amazing miracle' as well as deciding the apocalypse is nigh. While I know that most people will look at the story and give it all the weight they give everything extraordinary reported in the media, it still scares me. What happens for the few people who do look at this young woman and think, 'there might be something to this?'. Will their world be shattered like mine was? Will they be terrified to learn that we're more alone than we thought we were, and yet not so alone at all? Or will they take it to mean that god does exsist? Will it be a false epiphany with false promises and false hope? Whatever way it goes, it's wrong. Things like this shouldn't be public knowledge. No one should see it and those that do should keep it silent.

Fear )

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Sep. 26th, 2006 01:13 pm
father_peter: (Looking Down)
September 26th, 2006

I'm still unable to write much with my hand, even though the cast is off. And I have many things on my mind, so I will return to this again.

There was an article in the paper yesterday about a woman who wrapped electrical tape around herself and jumped from a 12 story building. And she survived. I know there's no possible way she's human, and now the media is on to it, reporting this 'amazing miracle' as well as deciding the apocalypse is nigh. While I know that most people will look at the story and give it all the weight they give everything extraordinary reported in the media, it still scares me. What happens for the few people who do look at this young woman and think, 'there might be something to this?'. Will their world be shattered like mine was? Will they be terrified to learn that we're more alone than we thought we were, and yet not so alone at all? Or will they take it to mean that god does exsist? Will it be a false epiphany with false promises and false hope? Whatever way it goes, it's wrong. Things like this shouldn't be public knowledge. No one should see it and those that do should keep it silent.

Fear )

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